I wish I was your most important person.. Whose most important person am I? If I’m not, then it’s not worth it… You mean the world to someone, and next thing you know they’re already over you… I’m not a toy. I have feelings. I can’t give all of myself if I’m not having all of you…
I dont like you bringing your past loves into my life. Im not supposed to entertain you. Youre supposed to give as much as me. I dont like having to think about what you did with them. I hate that you gave so much to them and they took it and flung it to the ground and youre jealous of mine? Yeah im disappointed, and I wish you were all mine. But youre not and you dont want to be. Because im not your only one. You want more, and you dont care about the ramifications but I do care… I care about being a good person, living in Gods word and not sinning. I do sometimes stumble but I WANT to be better and I’m working on it!!! I care about purity and making this world a better, safer, more joyful place. I care about unshakeable, unbreakable, close-knit families that nurture the beautiful spirit of God and true love in it, where spouses know only each other in intimacy and dream of noone else but each other. I care about having only one ideal soulmate, that all the previous lovers dont mean a thing.. but then previous lovers wouldnt even exist because you’d only have one true love that you would definitely meet along the way and you would live all your dreams of love and romance with them. I care about all this. But you dont. and you think i shouldnt either. but i believe in my dreams. you cant destroy them. dont tell me to come back down to reality because it;s through dreaming that reality is affected so why not change it for the better if you actually can? Everyone contributes to reality so I’m giving this! I cant survive in this harsh ugly *reality* so let me adapt it to myself! Who knows who else it could be helping? Let me live in the way that’s best for me!
I believed so much that there was only one true love for everybody…But we belong to God and in Heaven I’ve heard we’re just all God’s children and not married to anybody. I wouldn’t mind being unmarried, but still…. a best friend just for me? I’d like that.
…Then it wouldn’t make sense that you have boyfriends or girlfriends before, because if you would eventually meet your true love, then you would give them your everything, there would be no jealousy and no regrets..no horrible things, just true love and God’s spirit in their marriage. You wouldn’t waste yourself on other people who don’t matter…
I want to be important, to be your true one.. If I’m not, I’ll move on.. But I can’t waste my time and energy on you if we’re not meant to be… It will be unfair for me, for my future one, and for your future one too…
I want to be someone’s one & only, for ever…